Okay, I get it: I’m not in control.

Even if I think I can influence my future by scheming and strategizing, I’m not in control.

Even if I want to be in control reallllly bad, I’m not in control.

I totally get it.

And that’s why I’m going to sit back and take (almost) no action while my job future is being decided. It’s time for me to move beyond this traveling job, but what’s going to come next? (Reminder: I’m not in control.)

Here’s the best of part of all this lesson-learning I’m doing: even if my Type-A, impatient self wants to be able to have some influence on whatever is going to happen to me, it’s actually a lot more peaceful and relaxing to rest in the reality of it all. And that is that I am not in control.

I might need to be reminded of this fact a few times. Per day.